An online journal is a stupid thing for me to try, considering how much I prefer to just keep my mouth shut about my life. I suppose it’s another attempt to make myself be a little more candid. Catch me at the right time and I’m actually quite chatty about what’s on my mind, but I admit to a certain self-consciousness about being as fickle as I am. I find it a little embarrassing to explain why I change my mind about big things so often. I try, though, to keep in mind the wise words of my friend Casey: “Life is a journey. Whatever.” Considering the sheer force of will it takes for me to conquer this little quirk and be straightforward about things, I also get frustrated when that effort is not reciprocated. (The gentlemen to whom I am referring may never see this page, but just in case…)
Latest developments: Following up on a rare opportunity that presented itself when I went to Baltimore in October, I’ve been interviewing for a job with a software company in Darien, Connecticut. I figured it was time to buckle down and accept the commute and the regular schedule in exchange for a big enough slary boost to get myself the hell out of debt once and for all. I don’t mean to sound so cynical — I wouldn’t take the job if I didn’t think I’d have fun and learn a lot. I’ll get to travel a lot, they’ll pay for my lunch every day, and I’ll take another step down that long, unmarked road toward integrating my computer nerd side with my art fag side.
And it gives me a good excuse to tell Pratt to “fuck off” once and for all. As much as I enjoy the classes I’ve been taking, I also realize that I’ve spent thousands of dollars and an aggravating amount of time on two semesters of graduate school during I learned almost nothing new of any substance. Pratt’s program is good, but I have too much experience as a designer to get much out of it when I can only concentrate on it part-time. It feels more like an arts-and-crafts camp with a lot of work more than anything else. I’ll almost certainly learn more stuff at this new job about the particular design/technology issues that interest me than I would have from getting my degree in design, anyway.
We’ll see, I suppose. Wish me luck.
Oh, one more thing. I just saw the film Last Night, which was pretty good and raised an interesting question: If you knew for certain that the world was going to end at a specific time, what would you want to be doing at that time? I’m still considering my choices.