{"id":796,"date":"2002-06-27T10:40:00","date_gmt":"2002-06-27T10:40:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/2002\/06\/27\/winding_up\/"},"modified":"2024-11-28T01:06:45","modified_gmt":"2024-11-28T06:06:45","slug":"winding_up","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/2002\/06\/27\/winding_up\/","title":{"rendered":"Winding Up"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>A quote I stumbled across<\/strong> that talks about the leap of faith in my desires that I\u2019ve been trying to make lately:<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>Curiosity can bring guts out of hiding at times, maybe even get them going. But curiosity usually evaporates. Guts have to go for the long haul. Curiosity\u2019s like a fun friend you can\u2019t really trust. It turns you on and then it leaves you to make it on your own \u2014 with whatever guts you can muster.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right;\"><i><a href=\"http:\/\/www.amazon.com\/exec\/obidos\/ASIN\/0679775439\">The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle<\/a>,<\/i> Haruki Murakami<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n<p>What I mean by \u201cleap of faith\u2019 is that I\u2019m admitting to myself that I\u2019ve tried a lot before \u2014 leather, wrestling, sex clubs, boyfriends, groups, fast and anonymous fucks, casual hook-ups, topping, bottoming \u2014 out of curiosity that encouraged me to see what I liked, but I haven\u2019t always had the guts afterward to go after what I really did like if it meant breaking too far out of the character of myself I\u2019d always played. Not that I\u2019d given up on what I liked, but that I\u2019d file things away as a sort of secret life that I kept separate from my day-to-day activity. Well, what the hell\u2019s wrong with going after what you like and being honest about it? You&#8217;re sure not going to increase the odds of finding like minds without having the guts to let them find you.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>A quote I stumbled across that talks about the leap of faith in my desires that I\u2019ve been trying to make lately: Curiosity can bring guts out of hiding at times, maybe even get them going. But curiosity usually evaporates. Guts have to go for the long haul. Curiosity\u2019s like a fun friend you can\u2019t &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/2002\/06\/27\/winding_up\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;Winding Up&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[8,9,5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-796","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-ultracultural","category-ultragay","category-ultrapersonal"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/796","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=796"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/796\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":71592,"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/796\/revisions\/71592"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=796"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=796"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=796"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}