{"id":759,"date":"2002-05-30T09:26:00","date_gmt":"2002-05-30T09:26:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/2002\/05\/30\/the_bottledup_c\/"},"modified":"2024-11-30T03:19:47","modified_gmt":"2024-11-30T08:19:47","slug":"the_bottledup_c","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/2002\/05\/30\/the_bottledup_c\/","title":{"rendered":"The Bottled-Up City of Candor"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>It was a big decision<\/strong> for me to be candid here on the site about what\u2019s been happening to me lately. But considering that a lot of my struggles are about being afraid to admit to weakness or vulnerability, I thought it would be a healthy step to let it all hang loose for once and see how things go. Also, my thoughts have been so addled lately that it\u2019s been good for me to record them here during moments of clarity, or at least during the moments when I had the energy to try sorting them out. For friends and family and such, it&#8217;s proven to be a useful way to take a barometer reading of how I\u2019m doing. For other people who read but don\u2019t actually know me, I guess it just makes for a curious roller-coaster ride of depression and angst. Whee! Come watch Sparky get his crazy on!<\/p>\n<p>I haven\u2019t really found it detrimental to just own up to my problems here, however. I feel a little exposed, true, but all the venting and the navel-gazing has been pretty cathartic. That counts for something, right?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It was a big decision for me to be candid here on the site about what\u2019s been happening to me lately. But considering that a lot of my struggles are about being afraid to admit to weakness or vulnerability, I thought it would be a healthy step to let it all hang loose for once &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/2002\/05\/30\/the_bottledup_c\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;The Bottled-Up City of Candor&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-759","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-ultrapersonal"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/759","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=759"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/759\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":77081,"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/759\/revisions\/77081"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=759"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=759"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=759"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}