{"id":1120,"date":"2004-03-17T16:12:56","date_gmt":"2004-03-17T16:12:56","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/2004\/03\/17\/proactive\/"},"modified":"2024-11-30T00:06:57","modified_gmt":"2024-11-30T05:06:57","slug":"proactive","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/2004\/03\/17\/proactive\/","title":{"rendered":"Proactive"},"content":{"rendered":"

I\u2019m being all mature about it and everything,<\/strong> but in my gut I still feel a little flip-flop and wince of pain when I see or read the word \u201cYale<\/a>.\u201d (I can reveal the truth, now that there can be no further threat of jinxing.) Having focused like a laser beam on my application package for their grad program for so long, it\u2019s a little hard to let go of my daydreams of slaving away in their design studio, or working my way into Skull and Bones<\/a> to procure incriminating Polaroids in case any future administrations need toppling.<\/p>\n

There hasn\u2019t been any actual wallowing since the first week, thankfully, because the soul-crushing possibility of being stuck in my current job for another year was too horrible to face without setting any emergency plans in motion. Emergency Plan A (formerly referred to as grad-school Plan C) is underway, after I hustled enough to ship one last application package overseas to a school I originally ruled out for being too impractically far away. While I wait to hear anything from there, I\u2019ve set Emergency Plan B in motion, which involved making a case for my current job to transform into one that\u2019s much less nerdy and much more art-directorial, since that would dig me out of this hole I\u2019ve put myself in over the years. Emergency Plan C is not so much a plan as a vow to put up with a pay cut and find another job altogether next Fall, but that would be a rock-bottom last choice for a number of reasons (financial issues<\/a>, career issues, school-application issue, blahbedy blah blah blah).<\/p>\n

Going to school abroad would be nice, but hard. Being an art director (or something equivalent) where I work now would be nice, but hard. Hell, just knowing one way or another would be nice. With all that anxiety about the future freed up for a spell, I might even have time for fun once in a while.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I\u2019m being all mature about it and everything, but in my gut I still feel a little flip-flop and wince of pain when I see or read the word \u201cYale.\u201d (I can reveal the truth, now that there can be no further threat of jinxing.) Having focused like a laser beam on my application package … Continue reading “Proactive”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1120","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-ultrapersonal"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1120","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1120"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1120\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":76970,"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1120\/revisions\/76970"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1120"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1120"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ultrasparky.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1120"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}